i am truly blessed ...

woke up in the afternoon, stayed online all day long, had teppanyaki burger from mcd for my bday dinner, paid my rent ... did i enjoy my bday? hell YEAH !!!!!

26 family members/friends remembered my bday

4 cooments on my friendster
14 thru chatting
2 offline messages
4 sms
2 ecards
2 emails
1 special YM name

one friend wanted to make sure that i got her message so she texted, left an offline message and later we chat (banyak banget moda nya ya?)

i got one music box

my parents forgot about my bday (again) heheheheh

i had to remind my other mom about my bday

one friend wanted to give me "coal" when i asked for a bday gift hehehehe (he works for a mining company)

one friend wished me all the best

two said they missed me

one gave me a virtual kiss (mwuah mwuah back to you)

one reminded me i need to be happy altho blake lost the Idol ... hiks hiks

"husband" didnt even wish me anything, he just said: " jadi istri 2 ultah mau kasih apa buat mas?" heheheheheheh ... this joke has been going on for over a year now he?

one had this beautiful message from a song on her YM

maisie, tante kici, cousin Lin, bro P & C, ime' (the award goes to u), cici Ol, bu annie "my other mom", ery "the coal guy", miss deb "my twin sister", papa Kevin (im waiting for traktiran nya ya), za' (lets party girl), rein, andre (soon u'll be my diving partner ok?), meity, rizal, cs, suami, xty, gustya, rhea girl, cst, awang, rika, astrid .... so to all of you ... thank you so much from the bottom of my soul ( .. or whatever left from my soul ...do i still hv a soul? i though i sold it to the devil? hmmmmm ......)

Tuhan, makasih ya udh kasih aku umur panjang. mudah2n tahun depan temen2 ku masih inget ama ulang tahun ku ... yah kalau mungkin papa mama juga inget kali ya (hehehehe) ... mau kerjaan donk Tuhan ... kalau dpt yg jadi cita2 ku wah aku seneng banget, tp kalau enggak ya enggak apa kok, asal bisa nabung, mau mengunjungi ibu ku yang satu lagi nih. katanya dia kangen dan mau cariin aku pacar spy bisa tinggal disana (hehehehe). mudah2an juga aku bisa selalu bahagia kayak sekarang (walau banyak mengeluh). kesehatan juga aku mau donk (walau selalu ngidam junk food). aku minta dikasih kekuatan buat menyelesaikan masalah yg belum terselesaikan. mudah2n aku bisa makin dewasa, krn aku kadang juga merasa kok udh umur segini kelakukan masih kayak anak ABG ya (eh tapi Tuhan enggak apa kok .... yg penting aku seneng dan orang2 disekitarku enggak terganggu hehehehe). perasaan yg "kurang baik" yg masih nyantol di hatiku terhadap seseorang, minta tolong dibantu di apus ya? dia kan juga temanku. apalagi ya? pacar? yah dikasih kapan Tuhan bilang waktu yg terbaik deh. yg terakhir kesehatan, kebahagian, umu panjang juga utk keluarga dan teman .... oh ----- and and a world peace (serious loh ... :P) ............. AMIEN

00:36 am

kulupa akan waktu waktu yang kutunggu
ketika detik menit dan jam beradu
tak ada yang bersahut
hanya waktu yang terus berlalu

i forgot my count down .. was too busy browsing and forgot about it …

hari ini ada teman yg juga “single” mengirimkan suatu tulisan pendek tentang menjadi jomblo .. hehehe .. tulisannya sih biasa ajah, namun rada2 kena di ”hati” ku ... sebagai seorang yg a full romantic dlm artian bener2 bisa di bodohi dengan keromantisan, selama ini kalau membayang pernikahan yang dibayangin emang selalu yg manis2 ajah. enggak pernah mikirin 1001 masalah dibalik suatu pernikahan yg enggak mungkin akan kita lewatkan … tulisan nya cuma mau bilang “nikmatilah kejombloan kita selagi kita bisa. Karena kalau sdh menikah enggak mungkin deh bisa menikmati 100% kebebasan yg selalu kita agung2kan itu".

aku sering kali bisa kok menikmati kesendirian ku ... yg kumau saat ini mungkin bukan suatu pernikahan .. hanya cowo atau TTM doang kok hahahahaha ...

masalah "kerja":
kemaren2 ngobrol ama temen, dia tanya aku maunya skrg kerja apa sih? kenapa aku disini? ... lalu ngobrol juga ama temen lain yg juga menanyakan kenapa aku bisa ada disini -- di negeri antah berantah ini. berceritalah aku ttg proses aku bisa terdampar disini ... suatu pilihan yg "sedikit" dipaksakan. dan teman ini bilang bahwa "kita udh gede, jd enggak bisa lagi donk suatu keputusan dipaksakan ke kita, krn kita yg akan jalanin hidup ini" .. emang bener sih tp aku juga punya alasan sendiri kenapa aku mau "dipaksa". aku jadi mikir sendiri loh, apa mungkin ya ada hubungannya dgn kenapa sampai saat ini aku blm juga dpt kerja? mungkin Tuhan tau kalau di lubuk hati ku yg paling dalam [suit suit dangdut buanget gak seh?], aku juga enggak niat bgt nglamar? Tuhan mungkin jg jd mikir, ngapain juga kasih aku kerja kalau enggak niat? ...

masalah lainnya:
masa lalu yg perpengaruh besar banget ke masa depan ku yg sampai saat ini selalu aku sisihkan begitu otak ini mulai memikirkan masalah ini ... emang sih utk ketenangan batin, masalah ini hrs diselesaikan, enggak bisa dibiarkan berlarut2 spt saat ini (sdh berapa lama ya? -- gosh, its been years). kepalaku langsung sakit setiap kali memikirkan masalah ini ... mungkin ini kali ya yg jadi resolusiku utk tahun ini ... get it over with, and then IM DONE ... thats it ... it cannt be that hard rite? .. yeah i wish ....

ditipu dengan sukarela

akhirnya runtuh juga pertahananku ... ini gara2 baca blog nya cici Ol yg baru aja beli duren ... yes, its about DURENNNNNN ....

maka pergilah aku ke tempat penjualn duren disekitar rumah ... ada 3 tempat ... gue explorasi semua ... ada duren yg harga SGD1, 5, 8, 10 .... hmmmm .... akhinya ditilik dr rupa (menggiurkan ato enggak ... ini make principal judge a book by its cover), dr keras lembek dagingnya (gw suka duren yg lembek) dan dr aromanya .. akhirnya aku beli duren seharga 10 SGD ... warna okeh, dagingnya lunak, bau harum .... gw sih tau kemungkinan gw ditipu, krn duren seharga segitu kan muahal bener ... but utk kali ini gw sukarela kok ditipu ... slurp slurp ...

eh rasanya uenak tenan, yg ada sedikit rasa paitnya .. gw makan ampe mabo' ... hehehe tuing tuing

enggak mau kalah ama cici Ol, gw juga masang gambar ahhhh .... (itu sisa durennya, td nya mau difoto waktu masih utuh tp udh gak tahan hehehhehe)

i am an addict ...

i HAVE to blame miss cacing -and i think she will proudly accept the blame- for introducing me to this new addiction ... an online riddle game ...

yesterday, whole day until midnite i didnt do anything but staring at my laptop screen trying to solve one riddle after another riddle and another riddle ... and read the forum from first till last page trying to find that one "key" word ... amazingly, i even found a website that have all the answer to this game ... (ehem .. i cheated 3 times hehehe)

late midnite, i stopped at level 28 (grade 2) thinking that i cant go on like this ... this is a very dangerous and contagious game ... so i stopped ... but of course i have to spread the joy this game brough to the whole world hehehehe

so here is the link (in Bahasa): http://www.tktq.net/

WARNING:
do not ... i repeat DO NOT click on the link if you have work or assignment to do ...

the finale ...

i wrote this after i saw Blake sang the 3rd song ... and i agree with all the jugdes that its not Blake's type of song ... and of course its Jordin's .... ARGH ....

i still hope Blake will win .... maybe he's not the best singer but he's by far a better entertainer than Jordin ... [and then again ...IF this is a singing competition then Melinda should win]


[added later after I watched the whole show]
CHRIS SHOULD WIN ... hehehhe

Why don’t you like to be reminded of your birthday?

A friend told another friend that she didn’t want to be reminded of her birthday. I was laughing at that time cos I just clicked the send button of my email to congratulate her on a mailing list (sorry ya girl, don’t be mad).

Another friend said the same thing when I congratulate him, and I asked him why? He said: I just don’t want to be reminded that’s all. You are still in your 20-ies [I was in my late 20ies and he was around 30ies], when you reach 30 you will notice how fast time passes you by.

Maybe it is true. Maybe when you reach 30 (which I already am), time passes you by. Maybe it is the time when you actually gonna feel and say “Yeah, I am old(er)”… time when you get jealous with the teenager who are having the time of their lives fooling around … But being “older” is not that bad … you are your own boss, you are the one who make all the decision … you are “more” special because you have been through a lot more …

About birthday ... But I DO want to be reminded. I want my friends to call, text, or email me. I want my friends to wish all the good things for me. I want them to hug me on my birthday. I want to celebrate it with you guys. I want to get a lot of surprise and crazy bday present. I want to be reminded that I am a year older, that my time on this planet is a year shorter. I want to be reminded, so I can thank GOD for all the bless He has given me and I hope He will still love me although I’ve been a very bad gurl last year. I WANT TO BE REMINDED.

So friends, my bday is May 29 … I am waiting for all the good wishes from you guys. You can write something funny or crazy, or even send me some presents hehehehehe …

Some notes:
Pelangiers, your ice cream from last year ... I will never forget that (hmmm i havent finished with that book that you guys gave me)

MSG, I still remember how you all walked in the snow that night to give me my bday cake. Although all day long I’ve been avoiding you guys cos I felt a bit sad and want to be alone. Im sorry guys … Thank you, you are the greatest friends (feel like crying now hiks hiks hiks).

kadang aku bingung

Left VS Right
Aku tau lah yang mana kiri dan yg mana kanan. Tp emang otak ini gak bisa diajak kerjasama dengan cepat bila ada yang bertanya dan jawabannya adalah ”kanan” atau ”kiri”. Makanya kalau naik atau mobil, jauh2 sebelum perlu belok, aku dlm hati udh mikir ini harus belok ke kiri atau ke kanan.

Push VS Pull
Suka bingung juga ... jd kdg perlu 3 detik buat mikir yang mana ya?hehehehehe

Whole wheat VS “whole meat”
Emang nya ada istilah “whole meat”? Kadang kalau mau beli ditanya mau roti biasa atau ”whole wheat”, gw selalu jawab ”whole meat” .. enggak nyambung kan? Emang ...

Blake VS Jordin in the finale

No doubt that Melinda Doolittle is a great singer, better than Blake and Jordin. Like Simon said she delivered week after week. Because of that ... because we all know that she would do good in every show, i kind of tired and a bit bored with Miss Doolittle. There was no surprises in all her performances. I am sure she will do great after AI. What she needed was a change to show the world that she is more than a back up singer, and she got the change. She will get a record deal for sure.

What I like about Blake is his originality. One of my favorite contestants (beside Mr Daughtry of course). Through out the season, he brought something to look for every Tuesday. Not just the beat boxing (yang kalo kebanyakan juga jd nyebelin hehehehe) but there is something "young" and "fun" about his performance. If all top 3 contestants have a concert on the same day, I will definitely go to Blake's.

Miss Sparks ... hmmm ... a good singer and she is young and pretty (hv u noticed that she is getting prettier) ... do I sound like Paula.

Actually, I really want to see Blake and Chris R in the finale.

So, who is the next American Idol? ..... i hope it's BLAKE ....

size 0 ...

I thought size 0 [zero] was an urban legend that circulates around models and celebrities, that implies a person has a very petite figure. Well ... I was wrong.

Today, a friend and I were browsing some stores in Vivo City, and we ended up entering the second line of a well-known designer boutique. After looking through the shirts and blouses, we realized that they only have size XS, S and M. Ha? Not even L? and you do know that sizes in boutique sometimes are smaller compare to "cheaper-mass-produced" clothes, right? Anyway, we came to a conclusion that ... rich women only come in small sizes ...

Now ... what about the pants? The biggest size is 10, and the smallest is ...... and ...there it is ..a pant in size 0. I was asking my friend for thousand times I think. Is this real? Size 0? Don’t even ask me how small that pant is. So is it the smaller size? apparently not in that store ...a pant with P written on its size label were confused us ... ha? what is this? When we compare it with the size 0, its smaller. How come they don’t use size -1? Or -2 instead? What does this P stand for anyway? Does anyone know?

... hmmm, i think women in size P or 0 must hate food a lot (unless they hv a super-speed body metabolism and work out 6 hours a day). well its their lost anyway. but size 0? ...

my head's hurt

i know that all my friends love me a lot. they encourage me all the time, especially now when i have not found any job. this particular friend of mine know what i "really" want to do. and evrytime this friend is online, friend always asks whether I have found smth or not. and just now, friend just sent me another 9 websites with a bunch of openings (actually i will apply even for the lowest position hehehehe .. cos this is smth i want ..) .... but as soon as i opened all these websites .. ARGH

i never put as much afford as i do now in looking for a job. saturday newspaper has more than 50 pages full of job advertisement. some of them have deadline a week after the ad and the rest 2 weeks after. usually i skim through and look for the earliest deadline, apply for it and then apply for the rest. if the company doesn't has a position for me, usually i will go to their website and sometimes i could actually find some other position for me. So how much time do i need to get to the last page of this saturday newspaper? believe me or not 2 weeks and smtimes more. i even find it hard to visit other job search website

actually all these times i take things easily, i dont want to stress my self out (cos it wont do good for me). i always hv time to visit FS, MP, detik or my blog (like now hehehehe)

so can u imagine hw i feel when my friend sent me those websites and i actually opened them? i wanna scream ... i cant even cry ...so many of them, when will i find time to read the pdf? if i just could get one position with them (altho' this opportunity is not in spore). i know i need to prioritize and i think i did that already (c'mon .... 2 weeks to answer all those stupid ads? im prioritizing rite?) .... but i hate my prioritization ... next week i will change my strategy ... hmmm ....

... and now im hungry ...@ 2 am where can i find smth to eat?

Food hunt .. what would you do for food?

I had enough of food from the local hawker, although it’s cheap, but doesn’t really suit my taste buds. When you have to eat it every single day, you kind of run out of option really quick.

Two weeks ago I was having a craving for a certain kind of snack from SnackzIt! (Ke Kou Wei). And there is only ONE place that sells it, Plaza Singapura. Basically its just fried chicken fillet with some sweet and hot flavor. I even planned on buying steamed rice from the hawker and eat it with my delicious chicken. It took me about 40 minutes to get to Plaza Singapura … and of course when I got there the stall was CLOSED due to some renovation … darn … I don’t know if they will open it again cos I just checked Plaza Singapura’s website and it was gone from their stores’ list. I think later that day I decided to go to Orchard.

Another story was about my craving for cheap (or maybe not) Sushi. If you go to certain Cold Storage supermarket you can get a discounted sushi after 7 or 8 pm (don’t know when exactly). I really love their salmon maki sushi. So I when to Cold Storage at Yishun (one MRT stop or 3 bus stops from my place). But they don’t sell sushi. It was dark already and I was hungry and I really really really wanted that sushi … so I went to the only place that I know that sells this sushi …Takashimaya here I come (20 minutes by MRT). And of course another bad luck for me … they run out of salmon maki and I ended up with salmon skin maki … sigh ….

Indonesia is more than just Bali

an old friend: where do you come from?
me: Indonesia.
on old friend: oh yeah, country that produces Nike shoes [and this was from an African friend]

What i miss most about my old job

Friend is on top of the list … so what else …

I hate to say this ... but I miss all the travels (actually I didnt do a lot of traveling. I think I went to Raja Ampat, Bali, Bandung, Balikpapan, Medan, Banda Aceh, Bogor (diitung juga kali ya) ... thats all during 2.5 years working for P)… pdhl kemaren sempet ngeluh “udh cape jalan terus”. Basically I always love traveling, but I hate to spend enormous hours on plane or bus when all you can do is sit or eat or read or sleep .. its tiring. After reading my friend’s blog about her last trips, gw jd bener iriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii banget. Aku mau jalan2 (gratis) lagi walau ada kerjaan yg tetap harus dikerjain, tp pengalaman berada di tempat baru itu yg enggak bisa tergantikan. Meet new people, try new food. I miss being in a new surrounding. I think I have to thank Pelangi for “paying” for my wildest trip and experience that I will never ever forget.

I hope my future job will involve some traveling, not too much tho’.... just enough to …. Or maybe someone could hire me to do a show about traveling? hmmmm .. but its has to be something unique and different … what could that be ya? Any suggestion?

When I have the whole day without anything important to do, my mind usually wonders around, and I come up with this …. (actually the list is soooooooooo longggg)

Gw pengen belajar diving nih, ada diving course yg diadain PADI disini. Pengen ke Krabi (bener gak ya nulisnya), pengen ke Maldives, pengen travel ke Vietnam-Kamboja-Laos, mau nabung buat mengunjungi Lindex-Vera Moda-Sisters-H&M (hehehehe) di suatu kota kecil lalu melihat The Turning Torso yang udah jadi, Rome will be nice, menunggu undangan ke Wayag & Sayang (stlh kursus diving tentunya), belum pernah ke Shanghai-Beijing, mau belajar Mandarin (but sometimes I think my brain just could not cope with this very difficult languange, but a friend "kind of" push me to put that thought away and start the course. I know Mandarin will do me good), i wanna have my own kitchen so i could cook (kangen pengen masak nih, di tempat kos rada susah), mau pulang kampung, mau belanja di Top Shop (its summer collection is so colorful), mau punya budget tak terhingga utk buku, mau beli gadget baru ...

brides from Indonesia

The world is getting weirder and scarier ... I know that many countries have dating service website and I even heard about mail-ordered bride from Russia (I think there's a movie about this). But I was at awe when I got an URL (from a mailing list) about this similar thing in Indonesia. And yes I read it (but because I'm curious OK). First of all, the website is soooo ordinary and was designed by an amateur. Second, .... of there is no second (hehehhe). Anyway, that is not what troubled me. It's the content of the website. The owner (a foreigner husband and an Indonesian wife) offers a 2-week tour to their small village in East Java, where guys can meet a bunch of single women who are looking for husband (for sure). According to the website, these women don't care about your age, appearance, or financial status. And if you lucky (which I think your chance to get lucky is about 99%), within 2 weeks you will get your bride. And how much does your bride cost? oh about USD 1,500

I am not against this kind of dating service at all, but the way the owner sell their service makes me speechless.

Oh this is from the website:

"Would you like a wife who never complains, nags or refuses sex? One who devotes her life to making you happy?"

Are you making an advertisement for angel, mister? Well, if the angel has internet access and read your website I think they prefer to stay in heaven. ohhh sorry mister ... my mistake ... so you are referring to a free-mute-maid-whore (sorry for the language .... ) who can cook, wash your underwear, clean you house, raise your children and be ready 24-7 when you are in "mood" to have sex, but has no life whatsoever???? OMG. Well I think whoever wrote this a chauvinist pig.